Change takes time...

Change is scary but good for the soul.

I'm starting a new chapter in my life and I'm scared. To make a long story short, I lost a job and found another one almost right away - only because I allowed myself to try a new field.
Sure, my dream is to quit the day job to be a full time writer but until then, I still have to pay the bills so I need to work where they are hiring.
I'm looking into going back to college to concentrate more in Communications - Journalism and probably Public Relations and or Public Advocacy - right now, that thought is inline and there's time to decide.
What I've accepted is a job in nursing as an aide. It's not something I love to do and not something I see myself doing for a very long time. I also can't picture myself spending the rest of the year working for this low of a salary and on second shift. I've considered changing to the nursing field- trust me- if all else fails and I'm still wearing scrubs in 5- 7 or 10 years from now, it'll be because I got my LPN or even my RN and I'll move on to another health care facility.
It's not the health care field that I find a problem with - it's the schedule. I love promoting health care and helping people live a better life. I wouldn't mind learning how to draw blood (then I'd be allowed to volunteer for the American Red Cross) or learning to administer medicine - but- everyone I know says they don't picture me doing that.
I'm scared to do this.
I'm an arts, sports and entertainment and social media kind of girl.
My schedule is different, I'm now on second shift and sitting around the house in the day time until 2ish is distracting. I have to re-adjust my writing and work out time. I also have to find away to work weekends - that's so scary.
Right now, I'm pacing and trying to control myself, to not spend too much time on Twitter or Facebook and trying to focus on writing but it's a fail for the day.
I reminded myself earlier that even GOD (who I do believe in) took 6 days to create the Earth, so I guess, I should cut myself some slack.
I should give myself a week or two to adjust. I'm starting to see benefits to working 3-11 shift.

1. Now that it's summer time, I can hang out in the sun, swim and have my sister and niece over for play time.
2. I can go shopping earlier in the day.
3. I can go to the library.
4. I can train my brain to write during the day, that way, if God allows it, I do get hired to write full time - I know how to focus on writing during the busy day time, instead of the quiet early mornings or midnight hours.
5. I can focus on contacting and networking with other writers.
6. I can go back to school to focus on what I want during the day time. I'm more alert in the mornings so maybe this will eventually work itself out.

I've yet to find any benefit or 'pro' to work on weekends.
I'll miss a race every other weekend. As a NASCAR (aspiring) writer - that's very bad.
I have to plan my weekends far in advance.
If something is going on, I have to ask for the weekend off in hopes that someone will switch a shift with me.

I know I won't miss going out to parties so I'm cool with that - but the idea that I have to plan so far ahead to enjoy my weekends is disturbing - especially in the summer time (I doubt I'll care much in the winter). I hope to find some peace with it.

Change is scary but certainly good.